First it was, "I don't want to see that underline in your report book anymore! Better buck up!"
Then it is, " What do you mean i am demoralizing you? I am trying to encourage you!"

[I just had to slam my laptop shut because of preying eyes.
yes MY laptop. My parents USED me to get a cheap one for THEIR use. At least i can use it once in a while..]

Back to the post,
Encouraging? What the hell man.. if that is encouraging me,
then whats discouraging me? I don't wanna know...
Yea the demoralizing part was way off, but i dint know how to tell her
what she was doing to me. Telling me this way will just make me
not do it more.. Rebellious me? Yea kinda..
Well I cant just sit there and take all the punches, can I?
You wont go far in life if you always take the back seat...

About taking the back seat, my father keeps on telling me to (take the back seat)
"Give way to your brother!" "Talk to your mum even if she is like this"
Oh so i must change so that the rest of the world will be happy?
Yes the world is competitive.. but must you make me the loser
so that my brainy-er brother can over take me in life?
Or so that my mother has someone who can shout at?
I can be your physical punching bag, but i cant be your emotional punching bag
I noticed that every time that she had a bad day at work,
first thing she would do is to find something to scold me.
If i rebut the accusation, she would turn to my dad and cry like a baby
My dad will be the extra guy and always side with my mum even though he knows i am right..
Either that or my mum will go to my brother and tell him not to be like me
complaining to him how bad a son i am..
must i really take all the punches for everyone?
Dad's business is not doing well, all he can do is blame me for not praying hard enough for him
Is it that everything that i do is not done well enough even if i put in my 110%?
Studies, work, and even PRAY? What do you mean by not hard enough?
Must i do everything till I'm half dead than you'll say i have done enough?
Even then, i doubt that you'll pity me. You'll just say "Do more, your
not working hard enough! Work harder! It is for your future!"
Even if i have other plans for MY future, MY future will be what THEY want it to be..

Recently ended 'shi bao tai zhong' (my school daze) series on channel 8
shows the troubles of parents AND their children..
I always hear, "See, being a parent is the hardest job" when the parents are well,
angry with their children. But i dont hear anything when the series shows
the kids struggling with parents expectations. Unreasonable judgment or
anything that says "kids are right sometimes".
Parents think that they are better than their child, whatever the child says or do
is wrong and must be corrected to what their parents deem fit..
Parents have that "I must be always right in front of my kids"
I dont know if thats the proper way to say it but i hope that you get the idea
I just dont want to grow up like them, i want to better than them

Now they left me at home alone, bring my brother out for something.
Am i that bad that you dont even bother to tell me where your going?
Oh right it is none of my business.. i shouldn't probe deeper because i am me..

Right off to eat my cold dinner which my parents left for me.. at least there is food -.-